Car Affairs

Responsibility like.. having a car.. can be quite a messy affair at the beginning. When i was first given a car to use, there was the constant forgetfulness of locking the doors, and the number of times going back to the parking lot to double check. I forgot to off the car lights, (about 3 to 4 times already!) and after lectures the car can’t be started and first i called a friend, to jump start it. If not i called the LON PAC - which is an insurance company the car has policy with. LON PAC is very reliable and anything happens to the car while driving they are the first person i’ll call, then only will call my parents or other people. But basically LON PAC is the man.. when things happen.

This car hasn’t been reliable since using it 2 years ago to drive to campus and back. It broke down many times, and out of the many times, a few was because of overheated engine - no water - not just once, but twice - Once it broke down with smoke coming out from the engine and i was told by the mechanic that if i drove any further, it would have blown up. Thank God!

The gear box has been changed twice already. The gear suddenly gave up and it wouldn’t change gear. LON PAC came and drove it to the mechanic and it cost few thousands to get it changed.

And there are other minor problems of the car that its not as important. I do feel insecure driving an unreliable car that has died on me so many times before. Luckily for the past few months it works fine.

But just these few days, i noticed a new problem with it. The pick up of the car is now extremely slow, like slower than usual. This is EXTREMELY dangerous because when you’re on a curve, the car will slide down and you need to pick up fast so that the car wouldn’t knock the car behind you if it is very close.

And because of the lack of power and slow pick up, the car will slide down even on ‘dead corpse’ (bum?) and has gotta put more force onto the accelerator. I almost knocked the security guard who so happen to be so ’smart’ as to walk so close behind the car as i was going out of the condo on the ‘bum’.

.. and i do want a good and powerful car. Good and expensive cars aren’t only for show-offs, it is for safety, security and reliability!

.. aiming for a Toyota Camry!

One of the funnier thing that happened. Didn’t notice this green thing while driving until later but as i was on the road, this was there until i reached the destination. LOL!

faith is the miracle

aihh… trying to survive this week… really hope to get through this very pressuring situation.. lucky.. i’m taking it quite easily with some mind-generated confidence.. hahhaa.. like.. you know you’re just hoping for the best and that you know you can’t make if you do not have confidence… guess in many situation, all we need is to believe in ourselves and some good things will happen to us.. like start believing you’re smart.. haha i need to start believe i’m smart and that i can handle it. hahahaha LOL! Who cares what people think and say eh? One technique can be used is think you’re an accountant when you sit for your accounting paper.. hahaha you’ll start to feel you know how to do it.. the moment you start to doubt yourself.. everything will come crashing down..

Maybe that’s what we call Faith.. Faith is so important.. no its not necessary about religion faith.. just faith alone.. like knowing you can handle it.. knowing things will work out fine.. even if it doesn’t, faith will help you to believe that eventually you’ll understand why it happened and everything will fall in its place.. haha.. yeah we do need faith.. that trust.. in yourself.. and your loved ones..

Last time, i used to worry a lot.. even small things.. like enough petrol or not in the car.. although there’s no indication that i should put extra petrol.. but i’ll still be worried. About 2 years ago, i was with this friend in the car.. and i couldn’t relax at all because i was worried that we can’t get to our destination on time, no petrol, what if we are late.. what if this and that.. etc.. then.. i asked him if i should put petrol.. and he said.. Don’t worry.. have faith. you can drive back to PJ with that amount. Then.. the first time in my life.. that word ‘FAITH’ strike me.. till now.. and since then i always say this word to others. Hahaha..

One day, i actually drove back to PJ with very little petrol with ‘FAITH’.. hahah then suddenly.. the car like started to get bumpy.. wahhhh seh.. start to panic already.. so instinctively divert the usual route to SK to pump petrol.. haha.. sometimes when you have ‘FAITH’, not all the time things will fall into place la… need to have good judgment also. hahah.. that time the petrol meter level really really low.. so can’t be over confident la..

Sometimes, i may be too easy-going.. but it does help in situation where you need to have plenty of mind control and confidence.. like what i’m facing now.. very very pressured… Hope with Faith i can get through this week with good results.

Happy Birthday, Mar!

Dear Mar,
This post is dedicated to you on your special day.
More than a year ago i saw your nick quite often at Cibol’s blog, and you had this blog by the name of ‘Top Apple’ and i didn’t know until recently. haha. And then one day, you dropped a comment in one of my post and since then, we became friends in the blogosphere.
Though we have not met, after reading your entries over the many months, it feels as if i know you in person. And you were hoping for some kind of surprises for your birthday, may this post be a surprise gift for you.

May whatever you wished for today come true.

Yours sincerely,
Drumsticks

bongkersz’s secret

bongkersz caught in action! muahahhaha… this is the evidence..

hehe.. go harass him now!! muahahah..

On Relationship

About 7 years ago, i used to envy girls my age with boyfriends. I envied because i felt myself to be very different from those girls and wonder how come i could never find guys who will like or take interest in me. Once a statement made by a Taiwanese guy didn’t improved how i felt that time. He said i am invisible and although in the group, its as if i’m not there. He said its not because i looked bad (He was probably trying to buffer his statement), but i should be more open.

During that time, someone very close told me that if i were to enter a relationship, i wouldn’t be able to handle it and will be bullied. To enter a relationship, i must first develop independence of thoughts.

Glad to say that those days are over.

Here’s a scenario. If you entered a relationship without knowing that your guy/gal has no independence of thoughts, how would you feel? and what would you do? Will you wait for him/her to grow up to develop his/her own identity and thoughts, or would you break up with him/her hoping that he/she will go out there and grow one day?

Is it important to first know and form yourself, like your own identity, before entering a relationship, or you can start to form your own identity while in a relationship?

Would you accept your partner if he/she has not formed his identity and couldn’t think and decide for himself/herself, while you’re able to do all those? How would you reconcile the differences between you and your partner regarding this matter?

Thoughts

You know what? Today is the last day.. of class.. of uni.. can’t believe it while typing this.. it sounds so final.. too soon to be over.. exams is another thing coming close but that’s not a big deal..well it is but gonna be out from uni.. that finality of it all.. its a big deal, a bigger deal! oh my goodness.. haha you know what? do i sound like i’m exaggerating and not speaking from heart? what i’m feeling now words can’t explain fully.. haha.. the heart is like crying out.. wait wait wait..!! Seriously this sem passed soo bloody fast that i don’t think i’ve squeezed enough of it yet.. but now where is the chance to savour it further when its all over.. well.. really soon since next week is study week~

My housemate walked into my room and she asked “you didn’t go back?” Then i said “No, exams coming so staying here”. and She went “har? Again?” LOL.. yeahhh exactly. AGAIN!! It was just few weeks back that i had the last mid term, and a few assignments submission following next, and now we are all facing the final exams after next week. Can you feel the brevity of the whole sem? Now my mind start to think how did i spent the time etc..

Anyway, on Wed after class, four of us went to makan makan at Secret Recipe. Tried out the chicken lasagne. haha, eating that is one of the highlights. boring or not? hehe.. simple things bring joy right? haha

Then on Thurs, it was Ascension. Day of obligation. Went for mass at 8pm. In the afternoon, met up with the committee of the prom nite which i was involved in a year ago for lunch at TGIF. At first thought have to pay, then realised its a belated appreciation dinner so the president foot the bill for all of us. haha.. so happy la, free treat. Oh yeah, avoid TGIF man.. don’t like the food la.. so dry and just not up to standard.

Feeling like want to be pampered and relax, so went for massage at

Please, don’t go there. At Pyramid new wing. Its super duper painful and nothing relaxing about it. Massage is like that wan ah? If it is then am really disappointed. This is the first time trying thinking it to be something really enjoyable that will help loosen the stiffed muscles and nerves on the shoulders but came out feeling sore. It’s still a lil sore right now. Sob. 10 mins for RM18/= I feel shy about this as this is a pure waste of money. Mummy gonna scold..

Well, looking back 4 years ago when i first entered to study U.. in the year while i was turning 18, compared to now that i’m going to turn 22 this year, i’ve had an eventful journey.

Although there are things which i didn’t do, experience and achieved as a student, i’ve had 4 wholesome years, in ways only special to me, just like how everyone has their own unique views and experiences. I entered the uni treating it as a playground to learn, fall, pick up again, and to fight my fears and build character. Looking back, i’m glad to feel satisfied with everything that i’ve been through - the failures that i’ve encountered, the few precious friendship made, the opportunity to challenge myself to things which i didn’t think was possible, the guts and strength to face people who hurt me, and people whom i’ve hurt, the courage to fight my fears and timidity (got this word?), and above all, i’ve learnt much more about God and faith over the past 4 years compared to before entering U.

As for now, looking forward to the final exams! There will be more sentimental posts when the time comes. haha.. right now, still a student!!

Hey its weekend! Chill and relax and have a good time friends!

Prom Nite 2008

Went for the uni prom nite on 20 april 08. have spent some time putting these photos at slide.com but can’t upload it here, anyone got any ideas how to do it? nevermind. here are some of the photos for you guys to see.. quite a lot of pretty gals and handsome guys do you think? i wore the last year’s prom dress. haha.. no money to spend to get a new one. but i did spent a lot on make up. for the make up and hair - RM110. all in, quite a few hundred bucks just for that night. have really oily skin as you can see my face is so shiny.

one man being surrounded by eight gals

us abandoned the food and take photo

the guys posing

wq, sy and i

princes and princesses

taking us for modeling?

four of us after taking lots and lots of pictures

what’s there at the top?

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I feel naked. Can’t remain hidden in this world with a blog. Google has invaded my privacy. Some more don’t know who is reading. Will try not to mention names here because people found this blog through names. Funny thing is when search my name on google this blog appear #1, can’t hide.
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Want a blog and write but trade off is can’t be hidden and won’t have full privacy. No blog, also no fun. Conclusion is will still keep a blog.
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Hope to get a DOT.COM sometime this year.
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Dinner Delight

This ‘intelligent city’ is notoriously infamous for being food-less. But not too long ago, new restaurants like Secret recipe, Max Kitchen, Homemade Chicken Rice and Diizan spawned itself at the new commercial area. Good for working adults around here. These restaurants are always packed during lunch time. Everyone has complaint about the food here. Yes, look at my hair now and see the rate it drops every day. Not much of nutrients in the particles swallowed daily.

With all these new restaurants and food available, still they couldn’t beat the yummy Cabonara and ice lemon tea here at the condo’s clubhouse. Awesome stuffs. If you want to know where and how to get there, give me a buzz.

This might just be the thing to come back to Cyber for.

Dinner at its best. Look like worms is it? nope fear not, they are Cheese!!! haha.

Asked for more CHEESE.. don’t they just look yummy.. or if you’re imagining it to be something then.. its gonna be YUCKY!!

The Kuching Dream

I had a super weird dream last night. Of all stuffs, i dreamt of Kuching! LOL! The last time i ever dreamt of a place was New Zealand, and when i went there, it was so different from the dream. In the dream there were plenty of sheep, cherries and cottage, and really cold dead silent night by 8pm. Haha, its sort of true but that’s only in towns other than Auckland. You can’t find many sheep in Auckland. LOL! It’s a big city!

Last night’s dream made me want to go and stay in Kuching! haha.. I dreamt of Kuching’s skyscrapper, and its very clean streets. In the dream there was ‘The Mall’, maybe because i went to Ipoh recently, and after seeing ‘The Mall’ there, that’s how the idea came. hahaha!

In the dream, i wanted to go visit Alvin, but he said that no cars can drive into his house. I have to go through ‘The Mall’ and his house is just next to it entering from the small exit at the lower ground of ‘The Mall’. LOL!!!

I dreamt that i was considering to migrate to Kuching because of falling in love with the city immediately after arriving there. LOL!!!

To the real Kuching, don’t disappoint ya! hahahaha!!!

The balcony view of Sandy Beach Hotel, Pulau Pinang

Taken during the late afternoon. Also at the balcony.

p/s > Happy Birthday, Jimmy!! aka Jing!!

Hero Gong Gong

My bro phoned me up on Tuesday morning waking me up. It was 10am. He then passed the phone to my mum, and she said with a calm tone, that GongGong has passed away peacefully at 7.30am in the morning. He is 91 years old.

I had fond memories with GongGong. He came to visit us in Auckland for 2 months. During that time, bro, gong2 and i walked to the nearby supermarket through the backyard as he loved to walk. He was 84 that time and didn’t need a tongkat. We used to be so careful and always suit his pace as he walked slower than us.

He was a very friendly person. Every time we go out, he will always talk to strangers! I remember when we turned our heads behind to see if gong2 has caught up with us while we walk; he was always very far from us, talking to some strangers! We had to wait for him to finish talking.

He had an incredible photographic memory. Doctor said he had a mind of a 50+ when he was 80+. He used to tell us plenty of stories, and jokes. Even stories from his childhood.

‘Don’t worry, be happy’ is something he told us all the time. And he asked us to have faith in God.

Gong2 helped me with my religious education homework, and remember getting really good marks for it. Gong2 was my hero.

He also told me to save money when I go out to work next time.

He was really good with writing. He wrote a book for our Tan family, as it was difficult to collect our family information in the past; he wanted us, the future generation, to know our roots and family history.

Not once have i heard him complain or talk ill about others. He placed other people’s needs before his own all the time. Every single time.. when asked how is he, his answer would be he is fine, and he said it cheerfully. Even right up to the time when we celebrated his birthday on 15 April.

He taught me what kindness, love and patience is.

I miss Gong Gong very very much.

During Mass

Gong Gong is on the left. Ma Ma is on the right.

Grandpa bought two lots when my grandma, Agnes, passed away in 1964. This picture is very special because it captures grandpa and grandma next to each other, and i believe gong gong and ma ma is now in Heaven, next to each other.