I haven’t been blogging often and one of my friends pointed out there’s a big difference between my older posts and the current ones. Some of my friends like Cibol, and Bongkersz persisted in blogging and now they even have their own domain, and perhaps making some dough out of it by now. Blogging was really fun to me at the time when i first started out and it was then i met a lot of cool people whom are now my close friends.

When i think about why i started to blog and i felt that i wanted a platform to express myself, where i couldn’t do so normally within the people in my circle. Perhaps i wasn’t hanging out with the right crowd at that time. And also i was in a bit of a healing stage where blogging is the best therapy to make life brighter. Yes! It really did and the best thing about it was i made friends, and was heard. At that time I needed to channel my thoughts out with a medium that can be accessed easily and openly, and blogging was the best option because it was then the very ‘in’ thing, it still is very much the ‘in’ thing now but with blogging, i felt a certain sense of connection to the world.

However some time during middle of last year, i slowed down, as in literally slowed down. Haha.. i think i know what happen. I started working and that’s how it all began. From then my life was just waking up going to work and coming back home online chatting. The same thing repeated itself for the rest of the months. I know some people don’t need many hours of sleep but i’m really sure that i need, like at least eight hours otherwise pro-longed lack of sleep (less than eight) can harm me. Another day i read an article and one of the few things it said was lack of sleep can cause memory impairment, and slow down thought process. That’s another factor why i couldn’t really blog because i really think that i was suffering from all the symptoms stated in the article. YA!!

So after those working months was over, it took me quite a while to heal. And now i’m facing another stage of my life where.. i’m about to leave uni in 3 months time! 3 months!!! I’m having ambivalence where i’m excited about leaving and being able to do meaningful things and feel that i want to hide as a student forever in this safe comfort zone.. haha. I guess at the moment what worries me the most is job interview because i’m not sure if i can present myself well enough, or will i be given a chance to go for an interview with the company of my choice in the first place. It’s really competitive in the industry and there are just too many people with better advantages over me.

Dear Lord, grant me patience and humour please..